VA Hospital
Red Cross volunteers bring flowers to the living
at a VA hospital. American flags flutter in every room,
the atmosphere is military; hurry up and wait,
a sergeant major makes sure hallways are spit shined,
reminds a patient of how he had to see his face in
mirrored boots, stolen by a butcher from Bensonhurst
who went AWOL during basic.
He thinks of a homesick woodsman from Berwick, Maine
who was dressed down for calling his rifle a gun instead
of a piece; he broke down and wept, pissed himself on
the barrack floor and was soon discharged as a section eight,
“unfit for military duty.”
Paunchy patients wearing VFW jackets and caps adorned
with patches, pins and campaign ribbons shuffle down halls
searching for waiting rooms; they’ll mingle with the young
like fathers and sons swapping stories about Anzio beach, landing
at Inchon, siege of Khe Sanh and bloody chaos from Baghdad to Baquba.
Bodies mangled by roadside bombs sit with glazed eyes extending
lobster claw arms turning pages in old magazines.
A wheel chair bound weekend warrior stares where his legs used
to be as he waits for a new pair. A volunteer agonizes about what
to say when a guardsman says “I really like your shoes, I used to
wear them all the time,”
A gangrenous stink drifts down the hall as a much older patient
gets cleaned up for a new fitting.
The hospital, a messy bureaucratic battlefield,
wounded managing the wounded, victims of post
traumatic stress assigned to watch the suicidally
depressed, disengaged clerks who can’t be bothered
to report black mold and mice running rampant,
indifferent staff trying to look busy carrying clipboards
mindlessly gossiping at the coffee machine.
Brain damaged soldiers wander a maze of trapezoid walls
of a fun house with distorting mirrors, hospital halls seem
to murmur ghostly pleas for the help of a medic.
Loopy on percocet, patients withdraw to their rooms
resentful and disenfranchised under orders not to talk
to the media.